How can I not?

How can I not?
Uly Nemesis

I was often told. . .
That I shouldn't let go,
Of those I can't afford to lose;
That I shouldn't let go of friends,
Even with whatever odds I'll face;

But how can I not cry,
If a friend causes me strife?
How can I not feel sorrow,
If a friend hurts me so?
How can I not remember the pains,
If it’s the same mistakes everyday?

How can I not demand,
If I'm always taken for granted?
How can I not surrender,
If I am left alone and abandoned?
How can I not retreat,
If the one I've been fighting for,
Leaves me hanging on the air?

How can I not give up,
If a friend pushes me away?
How can I think of happiness,
If he does not even think of my sorrow?
How can I say I'm fine,
If he doesn't even bother asking me,
If how am I?

How can I not feel little,
If a friend thinks my words are bitter?
How can I be confident,
If all I do is listen?
How can I talk,
If he won't even stop talking?

How can I be a friend,
In times of need and difficulty,
If he does not even want me to?
How can I not give up,
If he won't let me have the chance,
To voice out the reasons,
Why I hang on for so long?

How can I not be scared,
It should be courage he gives,
But I eat fears instead?
How can we be called BESTFRIENDS,
If he lets a single mistake,
Ruin and destroy our relationship?

I was often told. . .
That I shouldn't let go,
Of those I can't afford to lose;
That I shouldn't let go of friends,
Even with whatever odds I'll face;

Whatever may happen to this FRIENDSHIP,
It is not I who gave up, nor the one who let go!