Falling in love with your best. . .

Falling in love with your best..

You have a friend..your best buddy… bestfriend and that your so close together it’s like a day isn’t complete without spending time with him….You’ve been sharing life together for so long..There are no secrets between you..His life is yours and yours is his too.. Suprisingly..it strucked you.You just realized how much he meant to you and taht you’re longing for his touch..his presence and care.. He became your sunshine after the rain. The center of your life. The scent of the flowers. You are feeling something beyond friendship..You’ve fallen in love with him.. But..it’s not new to you that falling with your best isn’t easy, it never was.. Still, you’re willing to embrace all the pains and sacrifices taht may come your way..you’re hopelessle in loved and devoted to him.. You’ve grown so comfortable with him, for so long a time. for honesty’s ake..you even told him how you feel..You told him that you love him and more thatn a friend.. you beg for him to let you love him."You don’t have to love me back" you said..Then he said"It’s okey..I understand.." You’re overjoyed..It’s like a dream come true. You became much closer and got a tighter bond. Your days spent with him seems to be the happiest of all..Almost, you became his strength whenever he’s weak.. You’re always there by his side ready to help every step of the way..A shoulder to cry on.. Someoen he could lean on..Someone he could turn to anytime he’ll be needing help. You felt like he’s feeling the same way too.Eventually, that feeling grew strong and made you hope for the impossible..Suddenly, without even a sign of hesitation..he told you that he just had a girlfriend..The worst is, he’s expecting you to befriend his girl.. You felt like a glass shattered into pieces.Yoiu felt like being betrayed and dumped..It was an undescriabable kind of pain..How you wished that the ground would just open up and swallow you whole.but then, you decided to go with the flow..You love him so much that you’re willing to scarifice for eternity..You sontinued being with him.Hoping that everything would be just fine, That nothing’s going to change..It would still be the same..Unfortunately, you’re wrong..After all your efforts, shaded tears, and pains, it’s not what it used to be.He’d grown so insensitive and inconsiderate towards you.He’s doing things, he knows from the start, that hurts you..Whenever you have fight over things and issues, you’re always wrong and he’s always right..Even when his girl is pissing you off. he would only say.."She’s just joking..Don’t be so sensitive.."It seems like he’s killing you slowly and painfully..It’s like,he wants you out of his life.. Often times, our heart grows tired of hoping, understanding, of waiting and forgiving..Then there would be no other best choice but to leave..After all the tears, heartaches and countless hurts he’d caused you, you decided to leave. You decided to stop being stupid..Enough of this foolishness..Enough of this non-sense..You just want to fall out of it..Move on and try going another way..For the sake, you baid goodbye to him and said it’s for the best..Yet you left him this words.."I’d still be here..even if I’m not the one you need.."Then you walked away with tears in your eyes after seeing relief in his eyes.How could he be so naive?..Even for the last time.. god was helping you..The days were made too busy for you that you don’t have time to think of him..you’ve gone with your friends..you’re happy with them that it helped healing those wounds of yours.You’re your old self again..You’ve learned to forget him, alomost..you’re able to break the magic apell that made a fool out of you..you fall out of love..So to say..you’re moving on.. All is well, as theys ay..Then suddenly, all your friends been breaking teh same news to you..They’ve all been talking about your old buddy.."He loves you.." They say.."He wants you back and he wants you badly.." Unexpectedly, he came to you one day..Asked you how things are going and how are you..For old time’s sake, you decided to have a talk with him..Only to find out that what he’s going to say will only make you fall out of composure.."I’m sorry..I didn’t mean to hurt you.I love you..I was damn so stupid of letting someone like you go.." Those were the words..Words you’re longing to hear..Words that would totally heal all the wounds.But not anymore, not from him..You have fallen out of love..The magic wasn’t there.The feeling was gone..But he’s right there in fron of you..Almost tears in his eyes, begging you for another chance.saying soory for all the pains he caused you.Telling you words of love and that he couldn’t live a life without you.. What would you feel?.. Flattery?.. Shock?.. Anxiety?.. What would you do?..Reach for his arms?..Dry his tears and embracehim?.Decide to give it another try?..Teach yourself to love him again?.. Or maybe rage in anger?.. Regret?.. Love is so ironic..It opens your eyes, but makes you blind..Opens your mind but makes you stupid..It fills your heart with desire then tears it apart..Sometimes, we fall for the wrong people thinking they are the one..We cry and get hurt.Then realized they’re not the one.We move on and it takes us long of dping so.. Then after we leave, they come runing to us.Saying sorry.Telling how much they love us..It’s too late.After all the pains?..The magic isn’t there anymore..It was long gone..We couldn’t find it in out heart to love them again..Sometimes, words of love , tends to hurt us..It brings unhappy memories.. So what is it going to be?.. Go with him and gamble?. Or maybe for the best,just maybe, simply say.."Iwant to..but I just can’t.."